I must be a bigger nerd than I give myself credit for. I finally got around to actually start packing yesterday and I decided I was going to start with the easy area…my books (actually, I started with my shoes, but thats a different theme). It took me 5 average size boxes to pack my entire collection. I had no idea that I had allowed myself to collect so many books. When I moved into my apartment I only had 3 boxes of books. Now I only have the entire rest of my apartment to pack in less than two weeks…I need more boxes!!!
So I am 8 days away from closing on my first home. Everything has gone smoothly for the most part, except for one thing and one person…the seller’s agent. I am so frustrated and stressed out right now. My mortgage is part of a bond program and the seller must sign and mail a document that states that my purchase of her home did not displace anyone, its just a simple, standard government form. The seller’s agent has had this document in her possession for over 3 weeks and until Friday the seller did not even know this document existed. She learned about it when MY agent told the seller. Now the problem isnt just a little autograph on a form, this form is required before my mortgage can be submitted for approval and the original MUST be in possession by my broker about 4 days before closing or funds will not be released on the closing date…this is SO ridiculous, how am I supposed to be able to close on this condo if this woman will not do her job. She has been asked many different times.
I am so annoyed right now.
I spent the majority of 2006 in a personal downward spiral of self destruction. Finally, at the very end of the year, I reached a major crossroads in my life, my entire extistence hinged upon my decision. I could go one of two directions…life or death. It was in that moment, in the darkest moment of my life, that I made my choice, the choice to live. I decided that I was not going to just choose life, but that I was going to live a life well lived. I realized what many have always said…life is a gift, a gift that shoud not be wasted.
I now take my days one at a time and I handle my moments one by one. My dreams and goals have become the driving force that allows me to pull myself out of the hell hole that I allowed myself to become mired into. I realize, and am truly grateful to have a second chance to make my dreams come true and to make a positive impact on this world. My faith, famil,y and friends are the motivating factors that help me through my weak moments.
I now take pleasure in the little things…these are the things that truly make life worth living. I remind myself constantly that I cannot allow myself to become burdened down with things in life that I cannot control. It is important to stop and smell the roses and enjoy the beautiful blue skies that God blesses us with. I am determined to be as lighthearted as possible, always ready with a smile and a laugh. I want to experience all that I can experience in this life and I want to try and share it with others. I want to make sure I never forget the important things. The sky is my limit and I am determined to reach it. Along my way I want to make new friends and expand my family so that when I am gone (not until Im well pass 100) that those left behind will say, ‘she really did something positive with her life.’
My momentum is strong and I am running at full steam ahead. There will come more bumps in the road and I may break down a time or two, but this time I will not allow the obstacles to get the best of me. I know how lucky I am to still be walking this earth and I am determined to make my choice of life over death as fulfilling to myself and those I love as possible.